Peaceful

Tried to go out the last few days... Too much computer time takes a toll on my weak wrists. Continuing to work on my MCR page; looking forward to their back to back shows in LA this weekend! My sister has a friend going so hopefully will get my hands on whatever exclusive t shirt they'll have.

Pretty slow day; went to the bakery, got supplies to repaint a bookshelf, a coworker came over for a bit. My cherry tomato plants are getting so tall! And I got some new CDs in the mail :-) $7 in total I'm so excited to own Relationship of Command, one of my all time favorites.

CRAZED

GOING WILD WATCHING A LIVESTREAM OF THE MCR CONCERT IN SF TONIGHT; BEST BAND IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!! The differences between this and the first show, its all so exciting!!! So far there have been stock wolf howls, the forced ad read, the CHANT before Mama UGH! And we're still only in the first half! Can't wait to see what they play after The Black Parade.

Been slowly cleaning my apartment these last two days, it's always fun to see all the stuff I have :-) Here are some of my toys.

Didn't have lunch today, think I'll go out for an early-ish dinner tonight.

lust 4 life

BEER!!!!!!!! Just cause I have no friends to drink w/ shouldn't mean I don't get to drink at all :-) Mailed out gifts for friends aned had a nice dinner! OH and I staked my cherry tomato plants, theyre so big now! Went out for sushi now I'm just hanging out in my room; think tomorrow I'll clean up! 妹が㋇に来ます！楽しみ！Can only hope for the best :-) It'll be really nice to see her I haven't seen anyone I love since Christmas.

Not talking to the guy I have a big fat crush on cause I feel like I sound like a moron when I talk to her. Like idk man. Shouldn't be a matter of convincing someone to love me. Want her though.

Tomorrow's a new day! And I'm off work for like a month YAY

alright!

Actually at work right now working on this... All hopped on html juice rn what's going on... Mostly feeling good and happy besides the random pangs of dread and anxiety not sure where those are coming from! Sometimes I do feel a little like my life is going no where and that's terrifying but! Life isn't that bad! I could be living at home with my shit ass dad!

I guess it's also the general state of things stressing me out, horrible things are happening in the world everyday and I worry that I'm not worried enough... But I am worried. I don't know. At least it's almost the weekend.

I have been feeling kinda like a loser, no prospects of any kind. Like who want me? Three years celibacy is starting to get BORING!!! Unfortunately I don't know if I'm fit for consumption, did anything about how to improve my relationships with other people? I'm aware of my problems but even in infatuation I see those nasty habits show up and I don't know how to handle it. Whatever not like it matters, what am I gonna do? Go out and meet people? Rather watch my girlfriend Gerard Way shake ass over a shitty concert stream this weekend.